You were so confident. Took the world on with a winning smile. Looks didn’t matter, you didn’t care about weight. All you wanted was to be happy. You never let anybody talk you down, you stood up for what you believed in. You were your own person, and now that I look back to that, you’re my hero.
I can’t believe I was you at one point. It’s so crazy to realize how much I’ve changed in such a short time. These years flew by. I wish I never left you behind in all the change. I wish I still had that smile people loved to see. I wish my happiness came from the smallest things.
I’m so caught up with all this glitz and glam, that you’re so long gone, I can’t even get you back no matter how much I wish I could. I blamed you for everything. And that’s how I lost you.
“you fuck up everything!” I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it. You were so perfect. “No wonder they won’t include you, look at you!” I was lying! I didn’t mean it, you’re so beautiful.“they’re skinnier than you, you have to look at them” No baby, no. your body was perfect just the way it was. You never had to change anything.
I never thought I’d lose you in the mist of growing up. I always thought I’d stay that free soul that wasn’t afraid of anything. I never, ever, thought you’d turn into this insecure monster.
So pure, so innocent. Oh god what did I do to you? If I could have you back I would. Please come back. Please baby, please. I won’t ruin you again, I promise. I realize now that you’re everything I could ever ask for.
Everybody is asking for you. “you’ve change.” “I miss the old Sonia.” “What happened to you?” They want you. Not me… you babe, you. Did I kill you? Are you really gone for good? Please don’t be. You have people waiting for you to come back, don’t make them wait forever.
I miss when it was all fun and games for us. Wanting to be a superstar - and believing we could do it. Having so many plans for what the future would give us.
To be popular. A cheerleader. To be that amazing, funny, loved girl. Can you believe that’s what we were positive that we’d turn into? There wasn’t a second guess about it either, it’s what we were gonna be, we were so positive.
I promised myself I wouldn’t lose you… I’m sorry.
I had to change! I hope you understand that. See for everything I messed up, I did something good. I fixed something, even if it fucked up so many other things. If I didn’t know any better, I’d blame Middle School. I still remember the day that I decided I was sick of it.
“I’m not that little girl anymore Alysha! I can’t be the little girl with pig-tails forever!” I screamed with tears in my eyes.
“But don’t change! You’re turning into a whole different person Sonia!” My former best friend was on the verge of tears.
“Well, this is who I want to be!” I hung up the phone then, and that was the last time I heard from her.
She was right.. it was a wrong decision. I realize that now. Is it too late to get you back? Please say no. Please.
I’m calling out to you. I’m only praying that you answer. I hope I can get you back, from the looks our chances are so slim. It’s like every-time you come back, I chase you away.
You only left for a little while right? You’re planning on coming back right? You have to come back Sonia, you have too. I realize it now, I left you behind. I left you alone in the dark. It was wrong, I need you now.
Everything about you, I love it all. I love how you spoke the truth. I love how the way you acted was sweet, and you cared more about being nice and books than getting people to like you and make-up. I love how you were real, you weren’t about pleasing others, you wanted to please yourself.
Holding daddys’ hand. Being nice to ma’. Not being afraid to show you were a die hard Hannah Montana fan. Still proud you played with your bratz dolls. While everybody was learning all these raps and singing along to them, and you were perfectly content with radio disney, no matter how different it made you. You weren’t afraid to cry. Weren’t afraid to laugh. You weren’t afraid to do anything.
No-one believed in you. Not even me. They were wrong! We were all wrong I swear! You can do whatever you want, I promise. But you have to come back.
I’m holding on to what I have left of the memories of you, just please.. please..
Dear old Sonia, please come back.
You were so confident. Took the world on with a winning smile. Looks didn’t matter, you didn’t care about weight. All you wanted was to be happy. You never let anybody talk you down, you stood up for what you believed in. You were your own person, and now that I look back to that, you’re my hero.
I can’t believe I was you at one point. It’s so crazy to realize how much I’ve changed in such a short time. These years flew by. I wish I never left you behind in all the change. I wish I still had that smile people loved to see. I wish my happiness came from the smallest things.
I’m so caught up with all this glitz and glam, that you’re so long gone, I can’t even get you back no matter how much I wish I could. I blamed you for everything. And that’s how I lost you.
“you fuck up everything!” I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it. You were so perfect. “No wonder they won’t include you, look at you!” I was lying! I didn’t mean it, you’re so beautiful.“they’re skinnier than you, you have to look at them” No baby, no. your body was perfect just the way it was. You never had to change anything.
I never thought I’d lose you in the mist of growing up. I always thought I’d stay that free soul that wasn’t afraid of anything. I never, ever, thought you’d turn into this insecure monster.
So pure, so innocent. Oh god what did I do to you? If I could have you back I would. Please come back. Please baby, please. I won’t ruin you again, I promise. I realize now that you’re everything I could ever ask for.
Everybody is asking for you. “you’ve change.” “I miss the old Sonia.” “What happened to you?” They want you. Not me… you babe, you. Did I kill you? Are you really gone for good? Please don’t be. You have people waiting for you to come back, don’t make them wait forever.
I miss when it was all fun and games for us. Wanting to be a superstar - and believing we could do it. Having so many plans for what the future would give us.
To be popular. A cheerleader. To be that amazing, funny, loved girl. Can you believe that’s what we were positive that we’d turn into? There wasn’t a second guess about it either, it’s what we were gonna be, we were so positive.
I promised myself I wouldn’t lose you… I’m sorry.
I had to change! I hope you understand that. See for everything I messed up, I did something good. I fixed something, even if it fucked up so many other things. If I didn’t know any better, I’d blame Middle School. I still remember the day that I decided I was sick of it.
“I’m not that little girl anymore Alysha! I can’t be the little girl with pig-tails forever!” I screamed with tears in my eyes.
“But don’t change! You’re turning into a whole different person Sonia!” My former best friend was on the verge of tears.
“Well, this is who I want to be!” I hung up the phone then, and that was the last time I heard from her.
She was right.. it was a wrong decision. I realize that now. Is it too late to get you back? Please say no. Please.
I’m calling out to you. I’m only praying that you answer. I hope I can get you back, from the looks our chances are so slim. It’s like every-time you come back, I chase you away.
You only left for a little while right? You’re planning on coming back right? You have to come back Sonia, you have too. I realize it now, I left you behind. I left you alone in the dark. It was wrong, I need you now.
Everything about you, I love it all. I love how you spoke the truth. I love how the way you acted was sweet, and you cared more about being nice and books than getting people to like you and make-up. I love how you were real, you weren’t about pleasing others, you wanted to please yourself.
Holding daddys’ hand. Being nice to ma’. Not being afraid to show you were a die hard Hannah Montana fan. Still proud you played with your bratz dolls. While everybody was learning all these raps and singing along to them, and you were perfectly content with radio disney, no matter how different it made you. You weren’t afraid to cry. Weren’t afraid to laugh. You weren’t afraid to do anything.
No-one believed in you. Not even me. They were wrong! We were all wrong I swear! You can do whatever you want, I promise. But you have to come back.
I’m holding on to what I have left of the memories of you, just please.. please..
Dear old Sonia, please come back.
You were so confident. Took the world on with a winning smile. Looks didn’t matter, you didn’t care about weight. All you wanted was to be happy. You never let anybody talk you down, you stood up for what you believed in. You were your own person, and now that I look back to that, you’re my hero.
I can’t believe I was you at one point. It’s so crazy to realize how much I’ve changed in such a short time. These years flew by. I wish I never left you behind in all the change. I wish I still had that smile people loved to see. I wish my happiness came from the smallest things.
I’m so caught up with all this glitz and glam, that you’re so long gone, I can’t even get you back no matter how much I wish I could. I blamed you for everything. And that’s how I lost you.
“you fuck up everything!” I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it. You were so perfect. “No wonder they won’t include you, look at you!” I was lying! I didn’t mean it, you’re so beautiful.“they’re skinnier than you, you have to look at them” No baby, no. your body was perfect just the way it was. You never had to change anything.
I never thought I’d lose you in the mist of growing up. I always thought I’d stay that free soul that wasn’t afraid of anything. I never, ever, thought you’d turn into this insecure monster.
So pure, so innocent. Oh god what did I do to you? If I could have you back I would. Please come back. Please baby, please. I won’t ruin you again, I promise. I realize now that you’re everything I could ever ask for.
Everybody is asking for you. “you’ve change.” “I miss the old Sonia.” “What happened to you?” They want you. Not me… you babe, you. Did I kill you? Are you really gone for good? Please don’t be. You have people waiting for you to come back, don’t make them wait forever.
I miss when it was all fun and games for us. Wanting to be a superstar - and believing we could do it. Having so many plans for what the future would give us.
To be popular. A cheerleader. To be that amazing, funny, loved girl. Can you believe that’s what we were positive that we’d turn into? There wasn’t a second guess about it either, it’s what we were gonna be, we were so positive.
I promised myself I wouldn’t lose you… I’m sorry.
I had to change! I hope you understand that. See for everything I messed up, I did something good. I fixed something, even if it fucked up so many other things. If I didn’t know any better, I’d blame Middle School. I still remember the day that I decided I was sick of it.
“I’m not that little girl anymore Alysha! I can’t be the little girl with pig-tails forever!” I screamed with tears in my eyes.
“But don’t change! You’re turning into a whole different person Sonia!” My former best friend was on the verge of tears.
“Well, this is who I want to be!” I hung up the phone then, and that was the last time I heard from her.
She was right.. it was a wrong decision. I realize that now. Is it too late to get you back? Please say no. Please.
I’m calling out to you. I’m only praying that you answer. I hope I can get you back, from the looks our chances are so slim. It’s like every-time you come back, I chase you away.
You only left for a little while right? You’re planning on coming back right? You have to come back Sonia, you have too. I realize it now, I left you behind. I left you alone in the dark. It was wrong, I need you now.
Everything about you, I love it all. I love how you spoke the truth. I love how the way you acted was sweet, and you cared more about being nice and books than getting people to like you and make-up. I love how you were real, you weren’t about pleasing others, you wanted to please yourself.
Holding daddys’ hand. Being nice to ma’. Not being afraid to show you were a die hard Hannah Montana fan. Still proud you played with your bratz dolls. While everybody was learning all these raps and singing along to them, and you were perfectly content with radio disney, no matter how different it made you. You weren’t afraid to cry. Weren’t afraid to laugh. You weren’t afraid to do anything.
No-one believed in you. Not even me. They were wrong! We were all wrong I swear! You can do whatever you want, I promise. But you have to come back.
I’m holding on to what I have left of the memories of you, just please.. please..
Dear old Sonia, please come back.
